Saturday, February 25, 2017
You know that it is not easy for me being a guy with a disability. I have to struggle with myself to get to my feet because it would be kind of hard for me to bend my right leg. When I am getting up from a sitting position on the floor But luckily I have great function on my left side of my body like I have great movement with my left arm and I could open and close my left hand with out thinking about it. I could also move my left leg and my left foot too. I can curl my toes on my left foot and point my whole left foot to the ground or point my whole left foot up to the ceiling and my left arm and left leg is the strongest part of my body. But my right arm and leg are weak and I can not open and close my right hand like I can my left hand just like I can not move my right foot but I could move my right foot a little by concentrating really hard to point my right foot up and that is all My brother and sister can not tell when I might fall so that is why I have to wear a helmet on my head and I have a perminet chin strap on my helmet and I have to concentrate really, really, hard when I am walking by holding on to my four prong cane and I have got to keep my balance too. When I am walking by holding on to the handle bar with my very, very, strong left hand and moving with my very strong left arm and left leg and foot too I have to put almost all my weight on my left leg and when I am leaning on my left leg I can not fall that easy because my left toes on my left foot could press down to the ground so easy and I can hold my toes there while I am still walking while holding on to my four prong cane with my very, very, strong left hand. My right leg keeps me standing there when I am walking but my left leg and left foot really helps me to keep my balance. Because if I lean on my right leg I could fall over and my whole right foot could collapse because my toes on my right foot do not have any strength and I would fall on my whole right side and that would hurt me too so that is why I wear a long ankle brace on my right foot I was the only one in my family that grew up with a disability so I were left out of a few sport like skiing skating baseball gymnastics and other kinds of sports. When me and my family would spend the winter up in New Hampshire across from Attitash mountain I would be kind of jealous Because my family would go out skiing with their friends and I would be home alone watching television and playing with my toys too. But now I am living at the McLaughlin house in North Reading I had been here since back in the year 2001, but now I want to move on three of my friends had past on and there is not the same staff people here no more and I want a girl friend too but some times I am too shy to ask a girl out and I do not know what a girl would say to me because of my disability. Most of the time I am a little jealous seeing a couple and I have no one and it is kind of sad being a lone too. And I am kind of tired asking for a girl friend and one of my Friends saying to me look at that person he do not have a girl friend when that is kind of not right. And he might think that the reason why he can not have a girl friend is because he is disable. I mean that I have feelings too just like the next guy I maybe a guy with a disability and it maybe hard for me getting a girl friend because of my disability. But I still want a girl friend without some one saying look at that person he don't have a girl friend and that person would already be married or have and girl friend and that not right and not fair either. That disabled person have got just the same right to have a girlfriend or a boyfriend just as much as you do and because that person is disable shouldn't make a different. In fact that disable person needs someone even more. Because that disable person could not do every thing that a able bodied person could do and that is very, very, true too. Like I go to camp for two weeks.At camp I am around good people that would help me do the things that I can not do for myself or is hard for me to do because I only have the use of one strong hand every year then for twelve long month I am at my group home in North Reading, and I have a room alone Luckily there is some staff people at my group home that would help me if I need help. There are also eight residents that I live with in this great big group home in North Reading and if I want to II can wheel outside to the garage to transfer on to my dark red six wheel motor scooter to drive across the great big long very wide parking lot and then drive into the dunking donuts restaurant and buy a coffee I mean what if I might fall and there would be no one to help me up and it is hard to get up when you have the use of one strong arm and one strong leg and the other side of your body is weak. I which that there were a time machine so that I could go back in time and do things a little bit different like staying in the house a watch television so that I would not be disabled in the first place. But there is no real time machine and I have to live as a disabled person. But thank God that my left arm and my left leg are strong and thank God that I could walk by holding on to my four prong cane with my strong left hand and walking with my strong left leg and when my very strong left leg is moving my right leg move with my very strong left leg too
